I, like many, have a love/hate relationship with my workplace.
I love the people I work with, most of the work I do, and times when I can get creative. I especially love the fact that my work provides a valuable service and has a positive impact on individuals, families and the community.
I hate having to be there in the morning, spending so much time at work, having to be at work even if I’m tired or over it and packing up and cleaning.
The people I work with are lovely, HOWEVER, sometimes they drive me absolutely bonkers. They can be disorganised, distracted, negative or full of complaints. Some days they just get on my nerves.
I am slowly and gently learning how to turn problems, irritations and frustrations from work into opportunities to practice forgiveness.
Last summer I had a particularly trying day at work. There was a professional cycling event going past the front of my workplace. I arrived early that day because I knew it would be a busy day and there would be road closures. When I arrived at work, I felt like I walked in to a hectic mess. My two bosses were out of the building and I was upset that I had to come in and tackle the mess.
There was conflicting information about when the cycling race would pass our building, and we were confused about when the community riders and professional riders would be passing. I had a huge headache and the day wasn’t improving.
When I got home, I was so angry and frustrated with what had happened and with my two bosses for not being there when needed and not being more organised.
I wrote angry notes in my journal and did a whole radical forgiveness worksheet. And through doing this I had a magical change in perception and new understanding of a very old memory.
Through the steps of the radical forgiveness worksheet I had a realisation that I was projecting my relationship with my two older sisters onto my two bosses.
I recalled a memory from when I was 9 or 10 where my two older sisters were going out on a Saturday night. I had to stay home and do the dishes with my dad. It may sound like a completely insignificant memory, but to my nine year old self, I felt so hurt and angry. My older sisters were rejecting me while I had to stay home and clean up the mess. I felt it was so unfair. This memory and supressed emotions created a recurring pattern of experiences -which my bosses were playing out for me.
Now that I could recall the memory, I could forgive it. It always feels so free to forgive and let old hurts go.
I went back to work the next day with a better attitude and feeling lighter.
I have observed there are other ways that my two bosses act out my relationship with my two older sisters, and now I recognise these are opportunities to heal. My other workmates provide opportunities to heal in all kinds of ways, and now I am recognising these problems as the opportunities for forgiving and letting go.
I spend a lot of time at work and with my bosses and workmates. They are like an extended family and they are letting me work through my family issues.
sending out prayers to those with work and/or family frustrations.